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Wednesday, December 31st, 2003

Subject:add me, bitch.
Time:1:41 pm.
Mood: thirsty.
NEW JOURNAL..


http://www.livejournal.com/users/ill_die_alone


add that one to your friends list, if you're going to. cause..i'm done with this one foreverrrrr.
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Sunday, December 28th, 2003

Subject:whatever.
Time:11:33 pm.
Mood: disappointed.
i put this in my other journal..but i'm assuming no one reads that one yet. no one's even added me to their friends list yet.

anyway...

i swear i'm going to fucking puke.

"i want so badly to believe that there is truth, that love is real."

relationships are shit.

i hate you.

if you care, you can IM me and ask.
AIM= shari is a dork
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Saturday, December 27th, 2003

Subject:call me a safe bet....i'm betting i'm not.
Time:7:31 pm.
Mood: okay.
hi.

i finally made a new journal (ill_die_alone).

could someone please do a layout for me and make it look pretty? cause..everything i try is coming out terrible.

PRETTY PLEASE?!?

comment. or IM me... shari is a dork

i'll love you forever!

also...if i didn't add you to my friends list for the new journal and you actually want to be added..tell me.
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Friday, December 26th, 2003

Subject:i'm feeling green, like teenage lovers between the sheets.
Time:9:47 am.
Mood: tired.
it's 9:47am. why am i awake?

my eyeballs are burning and i can't even see straight. i want to go back to bed.

but..once i'm awake, i never fall back asleep. poo.

someone needs to hang out with me. even though i don't feel like going anywhere. cause i have really bad cramps. and i'm tired. and i miss Dan. and he should come home right now.

okay. the end.
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Thursday, December 25th, 2003

Subject:your pictures that you left behind are just memories of a different life.
Time:6:22 pm.
Mood: grateful.
Merry Chrismukkah!


Christmas turned out better than i expected.

last night was okay. we went to my aunt's house. there weren't too many people there, so it was nice. we watched Pirates of the Caribbean. and then we started watching A Christmas Story..but i fell asleep for the rest of the night.

my grandma gave me $50. and my aunt got me the How To Deal dvd.

Dan got me a scarf, a photography book, a really pretty Breakfast Club poster, the koala from Build a Bear that i wanted, a star necklace, Momento dvd, Sixteen Candles video, Look Who's Talking video, and..i forget what else. he liked all his presents<3. as did my brother + mommy + daddy. YAY.

from my parents i got a new tv, 2 scarves, a billion pairs of toe socks, 2 shirts, 2 sweatshirts, 4 cds, 4 books, and lotsss of dvds...and..some other things too. i'm too lazy to write them all. not that you care anyway.

sooooo..i have cramps. and..i'm tired. and bored.

it's only 6:30? oh dear.
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Wednesday, December 24th, 2003

Subject:i miss Santa.
Time:12:29 pm.
Mood: hungry.
Merry Christmas Eve...

Dan has work until 2. then he's coming over and we're going to my aunt's house to sit around all night stuffing our faces with a bunch of my relatives.

actually, i'll probably fall asleep on the couch. or watch movies with Cody and Sydney. golly gee.

Christmas isn't the same anymore. not since my grandma died. and not since everyone grew up.
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Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003

Subject:this time i mean it. i'll let you know just how much you mean to me.
Time:3:27 pm.
Mood: peaceful.
school is always groovy the day before holiday break.

we had parties and watched movies in all my classes. in chemistry we watched A Bug's Life. in doc. for soc. we watched Bowling for Columbine (which was much better the 2nd time seeing it. especially after knowing about documentaries). in philosophy we watched Bruce Almighty. we just sat around and did nothing in algebra. in expository writing we made snowflakes and played games online. andddddd in english we watched some funny t.v. show..i don't remember what it was called though.

everyone was giving eachother presents. i haven't done that since....actually, i've never done that. cause i've never had friends to buy stuff for. but...Lauren and Melissa gave me cards. and Kenny got me something, but he forgot it in the car. and Heather gave me a lollipop. and Jenny bought me the Hollister scarf a couple weeks ago. so..yeah..i feel cool.

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhm. i'm excited. tomorrow is Christmas Eve. i can't wait to give people their presents. which i think is better than saying i can't wait to get my presents.

Dan is coming over today. i haven't seen him since like, Friday. wow. he's going to Vermont from Thursday until Saturday/Sunday. what am i going to do?!?! everyone needs to make plans with me so i won't be lonely!!!!!!
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Sunday, December 21st, 2003

Subject:don't feel sorry for me...feeling sorry's been my life's devotion.
Time:1:14 pm.
Mood: good.
me and Jenny have to find another My Chemical Romance show to go to. and i most definately have to see MSI a billion more times.

i woke up today at 12:30pm. very nice. my face now says "Shan. Tub Ring." cause i slept on my hand. ha.

i haven't talked to Dan since yesterday morning. i hope he's feeling better. and that he didn't go skiing today.

uhhhhhhm. yeah. i'm bored.

i should probably start writing my philosophy essay soon.
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Subject:Mindless Self Indulgence is better than YOU.
Time:1:01 am.
Mood: happy.
JIMMY URINE TOUCHED ME!! *drool*

okay, so..Igor decided he wasn't coming to the show. so it was just me, Joe, and Jenny. we froze outside for an hour until they finally let us in. then...we found out that My Chemical Romance wasn't playing cause their drummer is in the hospital. so i was flipping out and such, since i mainly wanted to see them.

Tub Ring played first. they were pretty good. and then Mindless Self Indulgence played. oh my gawd, best live performance ever!

Jimmy Urine was really fucked up. and..he started running through the audience. and i turned around and he was standing next to me staring at me. and i just stared at him in amazement. and then he kind of pushed me (see..HE TOUCHED ME!!) and jumped up onto the table next to me. and..the security guard told me to watch out cause he was a bit fucked up. ha. i <3 Jimmy Urine. he's unbelievably SEXY. he was wearing barely any clothes...but the ones he did have on were for women. mmmmm.

everyone from MSI autographed my ticket. and the guys from Tub Ring autographed my hands. and their really sexy guitarist kissed my hand. OH YEAH.

Joe got Jimmy Urine's sweat rag. that's hardxcore. i got to touchhh it.

i took 2 rolls of film with shitty disposable cameras. i hope the pictures come out good. especially the one of Jimmy Urine standing right next to me...*drool*.

so..yeah..even though My Chemical Romance didn't play, this was definately one of the best shows i've ever been to!

okay..well, it's 1am. i just got home. and i'm really tired. time to go dream of Jimmy Urine<3.
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Saturday, December 20th, 2003

Subject:after seeing what we saw, can we still reclaim our innocence?
Time:8:02 am.
Mood: hopeful.
i'm feeling cool. i was actually out until 1am last night. usually Friday nights consist of sitting around with Dan watching t.v. or sleeping.

me + my mommy picked up Lauren and Ray from the mall. then we went home and waited for Dan. as we were waiting, Joe called to ask if we could pick him up. then Dan showed up. we went to get Joe...but i haven’t seen him in a while, so i forgot which house was his. me and Dan went to what we thought was his house and kept ringing the doorbell and knocking. but apparently it wasn’t his house. so i had to call him and find out which was his. ha.

then we went to the show. the bands were pretty good. Eyes To The Sky was really good. annnnnnnnnndddd...yes. local shows are much better when they play music that you like. ha. how could i have ever gone to all those shitty Late October and The Downside shows that you people go to? lame.

we left Joe at the show because he wanted to stay for the last band and...me, Dan, Lauren, and Ray wanted to leave. we went to a diner on the way home. they wouldn't let me and Lauren eat off the children’s menu! how rude. i’m totally under 12 years old. so screw you.

after the diner we stopped at my house to get my Finding Nemo dvd. then we drove around for an hour to a bunch of different Dairy Queens because Lauren wanted ice cream. but...apparently Dairy Queen isn’t open at 12am. sooo..we went to A&P and bought ice cream there. then we went to Lauren’s house to watch Finding Nemo and enlighten Raymond..but...Lauren’s mommy and David were watching Cheech + Chong. so we couldn’t watch it. instead we played with Stumpy, her challenged bearded dragon, and ate ice cream. then Lauren cut Ray’s hair. VERY entertaining.

mommy + daddy wouldn’t let Ray and Lauren sleep over because my brother is sick. so..me and Dan left them at Lauren’s house and went home. we got back at like...1am and went to sleep.

Dan just left for work at 7:30. it’s friggin’ 8am. i should be SLEEPING. considering tonight is the MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE and MSI show and i’ll be out late again.

EEEEEEEEEEEEE. i can’t believe the show is tonight! i’m going to pee myself when we get there. seriously.
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Friday, December 19th, 2003

Subject:i love you for this day.
Time:4:04 pm.
Mood: excited.
so, my mom should hurry up and come home. i have to pick Lauren and Ray up at the mall at 4:30, come back here and wait for Dan to arrive, get directions to the Washington Township VFW, and then go to the benefit show for Rudy.

Lauren and Ray might sleep over tonight. hopefully they can fit on my top bunk bed together. cause me and Dan will be sleeping on the bottom one. if they do stay, we're watching Finding Nemo...because Raymond is EXTREMELY deprived and has never seen it.

tomorrow is the MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE, Mindless Self Indulgence, and Tub Ring show!!!! EEEEEE!! i'm super excited.

i definately should've thought out how i'm paying for things. i owe my mom $15 for one of Dan's Christmas presents. the show tonight is $8. and tomorrow at the MCR/MSI show i plan on buying like...$100 worth of merch (seriously). which would've worked out fine if everyone gave me back the money for the tickets. but...so far only Jenny has paid me for hers. Igor can't until Monday. and..i never see Joe, so i'm assuming he's paying me tomorrow when i pick him up. hopefully daddy will give me some money tomorrow.

EEK. it's 4:15 already? i have to go get ready!
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Thursday, December 18th, 2003

Subject:the perks of being a wallflower<3
Time:10:52 pm.
Mood: exhausted.
"…all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn’t."
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Wednesday, December 17th, 2003

Subject:..and life was perfect, just like up on the screen.
Time:3:41 pm.
Mood: pessimistic.
all i do is sleep. seriously. i sleep through my classes. and then i come home and go to sleep. i sleep all night. and then in the morning i'm still tired. wtf?

i have the worst sinus headache..as usual. whatever.

i had 2 tests today that i didn't study for until 5 minutes before i had to take each. i got a 100 on both, thanks to my ability to memorize things extremely quickly.

in doc. for soc. me, Jenny, and Bec were working on our stereotyping project. then we started trying to put ourselves into groups. Paul says i'm an underground pop punk emo girl. cause i listen to pop punk and emo...but i know + like all the bands before anyone else does. go me.

i'm really nauseas. and...my brian hurts from too much thinking.

i've come to the realization that i really do hate everyone. i swear. okay, maybe there's a few exceptions. and by a few, i mean 2 or 3.
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Subject:you must keep your soul like a secret in your throat.
Time:7:15 am.
Mood: anxious.
it's only wednesday!? *sigh*

this week is going so slow. because i actually have things i want to do this weekend.

FRIDAY= benefit show for Rudy with Dan, Lauren, Ray, and whoever else i invited.

SATURDAY= !!!MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE + MSI show with Joe, Jenny, and Igor!!!

atleast the O.C. is on tonight.
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Saturday, December 13th, 2003

Subject:the beauty that i'm faking lets me live my life like this.
Time:4:04 pm.
Mood: ecstatic.
i got the tickets for the Mindless Self Indulgence and My Chemical Romance show!!!!

BOOYAH.

this time next week, i'll be on my way to the Cricket Club to see 2 extremely amazing bands.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you don't know how excited i am. seriously.
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Subject:oh, how wrong we were to think that immortality meant never dying.
Time:9:29 am.
Mood: optimistic.
click here to see pictures that i took in school yesterday.
please?
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Subject:i hate everything about you. why do i love you?
Time:7:47 am.
Mood: bored.
Jenny's mom called Natallo and bitched about the study thing. so now we only have assigned for a week, like he originally said.

me and Jenny actually went to the study yesterday. it's all freshmen. and apparently we're not allowed to go to the library or the bathroom or the nurse...no matter what. lamest thing EVER.

i convinced my mom to agree to drive me, Joe, Jenny, and Igor to the My Chemical Romance and Mindless Self Indulgence show next weekend. so..i'm going to go get tickets today. it will be just the four of us. because everyone else is pissing me off with their inability to make set plans.

so..yesterday was mine + Dan's 1 year and 9 month anniversary. yup. he was doing homework and playing games all night. so i went to sleep at 8pm. it was nice, actually.

my mom should wake up. so we can go get the tickets. seriously, this show is all me and Jenny and Joe have been talking about for the past like, month. i'm going to pee my pants when we get there because of the excitement. eeeeee.
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Thursday, December 11th, 2003

Subject:i can't help but think i'll die alone.
Time:9:10 pm.
Mood: sleepy.
so, Natallo called me down to his office first thing in the morning. and he gave me some shit saying that my unassigned study is now assigned for the WHOLE year...because it's in replace of a gym class. which makes no sense. everyone with a medical excuse has UNASSIGNED study. they can't pull this shit. it's just cause everyone hates me and Jenny. i don't care if they take away the study for 1 week, but not for the whole year. after the first week i'm not showing up to the assigned study anymore. cause....it's crap. he can eat me.

anyway..continuing with the crappiness, Dr. Wilk flipped out on me, Jenny, and Bec because we didn't hand in something that isn't even due until tomorrow. wtf?

i also found out today that Paul isn't getting tickets for the My Chemical Romance + MSI show, nor is he or one of his friends driving us there. and the show is next weekend. so we're fucked. i don't care what we have to do.....i'm going. Craig said he might drive us. i really hope he does. i HAVE to go to this show. it's their last show of the year. eee. and it's My Chem!! and MSI!! aghhhh.

whatever. i'm going to sleep.


it's the tearing sound of love-notes
casting out the gray stained windows.
and the view outside is sterile,
but i'm only two cubes down.
i'll photocopy all the things that we could be..
if you took the time to notice me.
but you can't now.
i don't blame you.
and it's not your fault that no one ever does.
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Wednesday, December 10th, 2003

Subject:i'm trying to let you know just how much you mean to me.
Time:8:29 pm.
Mood: irritated.
last night i was at the mall with Dan. and we were walking through the parking lot. and i hear "HI SHARI." so i turn around, and it was Mr. Adams!! i <3 Mr. Adams. i'd marry him if he wasn't already married and wasn't like, 20 years older than me. anyway, we went into Sears and saw him again. so i made Dan talk to him. and he told my mommy that i’m a good kid. and...yeah. Mr. Adams is the coolest teacher ever.

today was crappy. me and Jenny had both lunches because of our UNASSIGNED STUDY during period 7. so...since we had 2 hours to waste, we decided to walk to Ted’s North to get food. it took us 40 minutes to walk there. then as we were waiting for our food, my uncle showed up. so he gave us a ride back to the school.

we were in our expository writing class during the last block of the day and the phone rang. andddd...it was the vice principal saying that he wanted to see me and Jenny. apparently someone told him that we had left (which you can‘t do, unless you‘re a senior)...so he said we had extended detention. so we’re like..okay, whatever..it’s just detention. then he’s like, “wait, nevermind. i’m putting you into an ASSIGNED study.” like...wtf? you get DETENTION for a first offense....not your study taken away!!! it’s bullshit. they didn’t even give us one specific study to go to either. we have 3 different ones. which makes no sense. ahh, whatever. i don't know why i'm bitching so much. it's only for like, 2 weeks. after that we go back to an unassigned study. either way i'm still leaving at 1:30 on Day 1's. Natallo can kiss my ass. (i'm so lady-like)

AH. i just realized it’s 8:30. i need to watch The O.C. soon.
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Monday, December 8th, 2003

Subject:nothing can stop us now.
Time:10:15 pm.
Mood: amused.
DUDE, MY DOG EATS BUTTERSCOTCH FLAVORED CANDY CANES. that's hardcore right there.
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